Desy and Me

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A man is only given a pair of hands because that is all he
needs. He uses one hand to hold his family and the other to hold the ONLY woman
that he loves. Together, they will build a family, career and life.

Behind every successful man, there is a supporting woman.
Behind every successful woman, there is a sad story.

When possession becomes an obsession, the only outcome is
depression.

A love that is spoken out loud does not mean it is any greater
than a love that is silently kept between the two hearts.

Do not give what is precious to you to others. Give them
something that is precious to them.

Men would not have lie so much if women do not ask that many
questions.

People can forget what you do, what you say and how you
look. But people can never forget how you make them feel.

One can never find peace if he/she fails to find peace
within themselves.

Don’t be in love with love, be in love with the person that
you love.

Although women are Venetian, men are Martian, there is
always something called communication.

Smile, as it is the best way to cover up all emotions.

When all things fail, let go.

Whatever & Maybe,

DJ

To everyone’s suprises, I’m actually not very good with words. Huh?
What? Yes, you read it correctly. I’m not good with words believe it or
not!

I find it troublesome to express myself with words and hope that I can
be understood without spelling a words. Not by everybody of course, but
by the ones that matters to me.

I often find myself being misunderstood and invited a lot of troubles
and worries due to the misuse of words or when I’m not using words at
all.

And what I’m doing now? Expressing myself through words? am I not
conflicting myself to what I’ve just said? Yes I’m. But who cares,
women are conflicting species anyway!

okok, I’m PRACTISING…and I’m already on the verge of giving up already…

Well, let’s try….

The reason that I’m writing this is because for the past few months, I
come to realise the power of  "Words". Depending on the user, it can
raise you up to the heaven or bring you down to the hell. I happen to
live in the environment that talking and writing (both using words) are
my mandatory tools of living. Never in my life I’ve seen so much
manipulation of words. It can be twisted and turned, it can be honey
coated, it can also act like a knife that slice your heart into two.
Count myself lucky, I experienced all….I suppose this is common to
anyone else as well.

I was taught to be gentle in speech and mind for a long long time…I
was practising it  for a long time too till things went wrong… Then I
remembered a teaching from a book:

"It is easy enough to be pleasant
When life flows along like a song
But the man worthwhile
is the man who can smile
When life goes dead wrong"

How true is that? We are all pleasant and nice untill someone steps
into your toes and we started "talking" ie bitching, blaming and
biting…
I’m growing really tired of all this…I’m not saying that I’m a saint
and don’t do that…All I’m saying is too much of all this gossip and
talking back about each other is very taxing…and tiring….I find
myself in this kind of environment as some find it as an enjoyment.

Luckily, I have someone by my side who is not like that. He would
speaks wisely, gently (not so much nowadays) and when necessary.

When he misses me, he would speak softly
When he explains things to me, he would speak firmly
When he is tired, he would speak hastily
When he is angry, He does NOT SPEAK!- hint hint…stay away from him at this moment.

Knowing all that, the stubborn me still like to poke on him even more
when he is tired and angry (looking for trouble myself)..I know it
irritates him to the max…but he is giving me a hard time too! I
suppose, What goes around comes around:p

But… we will be just fine…

Btw, who is this person?Does he exist? Well, he could be a real person,
he could be imaginary …No one knows! As words told can be real, it
can be bogus too…

That’s all for now folks…enough of practising and it gets a little bit too long!

Happy reading and happy Labour day for those who doesnt have to work tommorow….As for me, it will be normal working day:(

Love,

DJ

Post a blog…sth that I never fond of doing it…not too sure what brought me here but decided to give it a try anyway! I always think that it takes a lot of courage to share your deepest thought to the world. The thought of everyone would be able to go to the web and find out how I feel scares me…

But since it is the last day of 2007 and 3 hours away to a new year…I decided to do sth different and post a blog…erm…how should i start then?
I came home early today to cook myself a dinner, a nice and simple dinner.
Sth that I haven’t done it for ages.it might sound pathetic to have dinner alone on a new year eve but I actually enjoy it alot.It will be crowded everywhere i go now..and I do really want to enjoy the time that I can be myself and do not care about anything and anybody.
Next, I’m watching the TV news…there is a lot of recaps about what have happened in 2007 and I started thinking about what have happened to me over the last year.
The year of 2007 is better than 2006. I was less sad than 2006 but not so much happier either.life’s been filled with work. work and work…spend a slightly more time with my family which I’m really grateful for.
However, there are a lot of disappointments…disappointment with people in general including myself…is not that I think that I’m any better than anyone around me..is just that when I realised  people are not like what I perceived, I got disappointed..betrayal and lost of trust are what hurt me the most. Once, someone who was used to be very dear to me told me that I’ve been living in a fairytale world with the bestest and nicest people surrounded me and i get to be on the top of everything. He told me I need to be more realistic and see more of the ‘real’ world. I agree. I don’t think I’ve seen the worst and hence I’m not really looking forward for next year…becuz I know there will be more and more of it coming. It will definitely be a good learning curve for me but… don’t think I will like it…

I miss myself, the past me. The past me who is always looking forward for a better day to come…today is not so bad but tommorow will be better… I miss my friends Ayrine, Olivia and Wilsen…my dearest friends of mine that I will never get bored to spend my time with, They are not here with me..but luckily I have Sh, Jayky and Boon hua with me…when I’m sick of all the pretentious, I can just be myself in front of you guys:) blame it to my "Manja" self….I felt so loved n pampered whenever I’m with you all.

In the year of 2007, I moved on from my past relationship and I’m happy that I did. I talked of him casually now…n will be glad if I can see him again. I hope he is happy and found what he want in his life.

Then, there is this someone else that I like to listen to his stories now… someone that is uncleared, unknown and uncertain…but I do know that he cares for me, don’t mind me slamming down his phone, listen to me whenever I need to talk to someone and last but not least, he talks to me gently. Who is he? I don’t really know ..maybe if you stay tune to my next blog, u might find out the answer.
Having to say that, this might be my first and last blog…so we’ll see what will happen…

Opps, it’s time for my new year resolution and that is to have NO resolution..when you have no expectation, there will be no disappointment…

See you when I see u…Have a good new year ahead